There is something so funny about myself I think. Like things happening but I don't realized they are. Probably because I am too careless or just bit stupid in understanding it.
I sank myself into this super hot onsen, dipping my head down till water level with my eyes, as I really don't like putting my eyes underwater and scared my eyes may burst by the heat. Everything went into a world of silence. I heard something though, so loud and closed to my body. My heardbeats, I did not get stupid and got scared of course. I looked around with head still half way sank in, no one around but me, so, those were my heartbeats I was pretty sure. I almost giggled to choke though. The sound reminds me that I have what they call uneven heartbeats, 25% uneven, that means every 3 beats, I skip one. Mom was worried while since then, I thought it's quite cool my heart can actually do those counting and miss the beat at the right time. I paid more attention and started to close my eyes, sort of meditating, sinking my head fully into the onsen without even worrying my eyes will got burst or not anymore, I mean, that's brave. I started to float under water. Like a baby, I was imagining, as they always told me. sound of heartbeats, weightless, the heat, and the sound of heartbeats. I like the missing sound.
Too hot and suffocating. I like this floating world.
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